Today my whole goal is to get into bed before 10pm. It seems like a little thing, a doable thing, and yet, the time just zips on by.
I think we are all feeling more and more fragile and worn out as the months tick by and nothing seems to be getting any better. I spent the morning with my son, Jack, and we were talking at one point about something that happened way back in April when we thought we were doing this big shutdown/shelter-in-place hoopla for a month. Thinking, “oh, we can handle this! We will just watch a bunch of movies, clean out a bunch of drawers, bake bread and then we will be back to our normal lives!”
That seems sooooo very long ago. And that woman who said those things seems so hopelessly naive. And this woman who I am now, feels so very tired. And not hopeful that we will be back to any sort of normal for a very long time.
I am grateful however, for the nice long hangout I got to have with Jack today. It felt nothing like “normal” but in some small way, it was relief to know that we were just stuck in this moment with nothing required of the time together but to breathe and talk and watch silly things and water the garden and just hang out. When Calum finally rolled out of bed, I made them both Dutch Babies ( a current obsession in our house ever since Willi introduced them to us). It’s basically a big, puffy, eggy soufléed pancake that you bake in a cast iron skillet in the oven. It comes out all puffed up and golden and you can put whatever sort of toppings you like on it. So we had those. Second breakfast for Jack, first breakfast for Calum.
Squeezed in some recipe testing and photos for some upcoming Oasis Meals on Heels menus, cleaned off the porch, went to the store a couple of times for ingredients… a lot piled in between 8am and 8pm. And the millionth day in a row of not enough rest.
So tonight, I am headed to bed early. Tomorrow is a North Bay delivery day and I am really holding on to hope that I will be able to sneak in a swim at Shell, if its not too cold.
Wednesday orders (SF and East Bay Delivery) should be placed by Monday night/Tuesday morning. Menu is below or you can check it out at www.marthaavenuefood.com
Those who want to get in on the BBQ action happening at Meals on Heels this week at Oasis, can order at www.toasttab.com/oasis/v3 Photos below of those offerings.
I hope you all found a little space and love this weekend. Maybe a virtual meet up with friends or family that you found sustaining. I got to zoom with my brother Johnny and his two gorgeous girls today. That was a highlight despite the lagging sound and glitchy video. Just to see those faces that I miss so very much. I hope that you all found a moment like that this weekend, where you got to connect with someone who loves you. I hope that you take good care of your fragile hearts and spirits. That you find comfort and kindness and compassion, and are able to pass that on to someone else who needs it. Hug yourselves for me! Xoxo