Martha Avenue-Day 19- Spent the day hosting a virtual Study Hall, cleaning flour out of every known (and unknown) surface of my kitchen, going for a little mental health drive down the coast to keep from saying things that I shouldn't say, laughing at the various texts in the ridiculous, wonderful group text I am a part of, talking to my bestie and to my dad, and trying to take care of myself. Today was the first day in over a month that I fed myself well and the way I needed to. And it felt good.
Thursday is a prep day and so there is always things to do... shopping to get more basil for the Ragu Willi is working on as I write, sterilizing jars, doing inventory and prepping the orders for tomorrow. But today I also made time for some WAY overdue self-care... just eating decently, going to look at the ocean from the safety of my car and hosting a New Moon Circle for a few friends. It felt good to take the time to ground, realize some new awarenesses and set some intentions for the next waxing phase of the moon. My dear friend Stephanie reminded me that it makes sense that I was craving alone time and some mental solitude, as I am holding and bringing a lot out to the world. I think they do go hand in hand. Nurturing people is part of who I am..AND I need to give myself the same eventually.
So. Tonight I'm headed to bed early, while the scent of Ragu bubbling on the stove wafts through the house. Tomorrow is another day. Another chance to be kinder and more generous and more forgiving and more patient. With myself as well as the people I live with. I will get up, bake a couple loaves of bread and pack up the orders for tomorrow and I will get my ass back on my meditation couch first off.
Menu for Monday is here below. North Bay (101 corridor up to Petaluma and then out to West Marin) on Monday afternoon. Orders for Monday need to be made by Saturday night.
Take care of each other. And take care of yourselves. Love your body. Stay Safe. Hug your people. xoxo