MARTHA AVENUE-Day 29- Whew. I am glad this one is done. Started the day too early, too many stores, too many people not being careful. Broke a bowl, oven was being temperamental AGAIN, cried three times before I was even out the door for deliveries. Thank goodness I got to see Nancy hanging out her upstairs window as I dropped off her order, got to enjoy the sunshine as I drove to Marin to deliver to Julie and Jeannette and Tracy and Kathy. And finally to get to have a brief porch conversation with my brother, Danny, his wife Sharleen, my two nieces and my mom who are all sheltering together up in Inverness. The sight of the ocean from her place was a balm as well.
I know in my head that the process of dealing with this kind of long-term, low-level stress/trauma is not linear, and that some days will be good and some bad. Maybe it was just some sort of astrological glitch today. Either way, I am glad to be home finally and headed for a shower and my bed. I am trusting that tomorrow will be a better day. At the very least, I am going to get my ass on the mediation couch and sit for a bit in the morning. BEFORE I do anything else. Because if I don't do it then, it never seems to happen. And clearly, I need it.
One nice thing this morning was sitting on my little front doorstep eating my breakfast of oatmeal, strawberries, blueberries and slivered almonds (before I broke the bowl). The sun was on my face and I was thinking back to last year at this time when I was headed into rehearsals for ONCE. That show was the most difficult experience to get up for many reasons, but the cast and crew were and are stellar humans who I feel so lucky to have been able to work with. To this day, they stay connected and supportive of each other, create new ways to make music together, set up on-line D&D games, tease each other and generally make me very glad to have had that experience of being in the room with each and every one of them. I so wish I was coming home tired from THAT kind of a day!
On the more positive side, the food coming out of this kitchen continues. And continues to be delicious. And I DID get my oven to work in time to get all the sourdough baked and delivered, so there's that to be thankful for. One of our customers today insisted to me that the sourdough was literally addictive. She's probably not wrong. If nothing else, we can call it "fermented food" and know that we are putting good immune boosting things in our bodies.
For Wednesday orders and delivery to SF and East Bay, please place before noon on Tuesday. Updated menu below!
Tomorrow, I will meditate and prep and make more masks (got some cute fabrics from my mom's stash today, so if anyone is needing one, let me know. I probably should add them to the menu!! And I will find some time to rest a little too. Maybe even make it into my outdoor tub.
For tonight, take care of yourselves, be kind...kinder than necessary, and hug yourself for me. xoxo